I feel kinda "homesick" right now... I really miss u two, Yurika n' Natsuki(≧≦) cuz I think you're the only ones who know the real me. the eccentric(lol), but true and real me. if everyone who's around me right now thinks that I'm a bit strange when I'm thinking I'm acting like a normal person, doesn't that mean that if I show my true self, they won't accept me? because I'm so abnormal? I really loathe those side that the typical Japanese possess...being exclusive to those who aren't like them...it makes me sick. ofcourse I know that not everyone have that, and that most of the returnees don't have that, but the truth is that even the returnees are beginning to be like that and I hate seeing that. and I also hate myself who's also beginning to give in to that environment...just because I wanna be accepted.
なんかそぅとぅ落ちてるみたいだけど大丈夫？ アメリカと日本と全然違うから大変だよね。 いくら日本人っていってもアメリカ長いしね、かなこ。 私今の日本がどんなか知らないからなんていったらいいかわかんないけど、 いつでもメールして？ かなこに助けてもらってばっかだったから今度は私がっ！ 14時間の時差がジャマだけどそれでも私はかなこの友達だからね。 一人で抱え込むのかなこの悪い癖だよ。 私もそぅだったけど吐き出したほうが結構ラクになれるよ。 だからいつでも連絡頂戴。 ヒマだったら電話でもOKだし♪ i luv you so much and i miss you